Monday, August 17, 2009

Refocus

I have nothing scrappy to share tonight.
I feel like I'm being tested in a motherly way. And the last couple of days, I feel like I've been failing that test.
Today I locked myself in the bathroom at one point, went outside and counted to 100, and then 200, and then 300, and probably would have gotten to 4375, still steamed, if the kids hadn't found me, lol. It was a rough day.
But earlier tonight I made some cookies, and everyone went to bed with smiles, sugary though they may have been, and tomorrow I am going to try and start over renewed, refreshed, and on the right track.
I know this is the way it goes with little ones sometimes, but I still have that anxiety sometimes that I'm sending them down the wrong path and that I'm the world's worst mommy.
In the end, I really think we three ladies spend far too much time together and that once school starts and other things are going on, things will be much easier.
We are T-minus 27 days to test that theory, and I'm okay with missing the rest of August in order to test that theory, lol.
June and July went by really fast with swimming lessons and camping trips, but the trailer was unpacked, and then the weather cooled, and we lost our momentum I guess. I heard a rumor that it'll get to 100 degrees on Wednesday, so I'm hoping a healthy does of popsicles and the kiddie pool will revive all spirits and we'll get back on track.
In the meantime I can't help but wonder...... why was it so hard for them to clean their room? Because that's all I asked them to do.

Good witch or Bad witch? Today, it was a little of both. At least Daddy will be home tomorrow. I need my Co-Captain of this little ship.

bah.

Chin up.
Shoulders back.
Measly chest. out.

Laundry. fold.

Carry on.

:)

16 comments:

  1. Hugs! We all have days like that. Deep breaths help too. Or, they make you hyperventilate. LOL!

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  2. Jennifer.T11:12 PM

    Oh Dav.
    Dav.
    Dav.
    I had the *exact* same day yesterday. It was awful to say the least. Probably the worst day I had since becoming a mother as far as feeling like I'm failing goes. I honestly thought " Oh my god, my daughter LIKES to be naughty and LIKES to be in trouble, what am I going to do now"?? and she's only 3. It was bad.
    But today has been much better, and I suppose that's what we need to focus on, the good days, and not dwell on the bad so much :o)

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  3. HI Davinie, I think we all have days like these. Hoping today will be a better one, Take care, Kathy (kathyb on SC)

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  4. Sending you lots of strength and love for this new day.
    Thanks for sharing.
    /Veronica from Linköping, Sweden

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  5. Just breathe and hope for the best tomorrow! Well that's what I do anyway! LOL! I have the same probs with my Miss 4 and Master 6 some days!!! And yes no matter how quiet I am and where I hide they always find me too!

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  6. it'll be okay - we all have those moments, but luckily they are just that fleeting moments before everything is back to normal.

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  7. Kids are such lil monsters, aren't they?? Mine drive me crazy all the time!! You'll be fine ;)

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  8. Motherhood is the most challenging and rewarding job there is. We've all been there...I actually walked out of my house and down the street while my crying kids stood in the doorway once. I know, mother of the year, huh? You will be happily surprised that today is a better day, I'm sure. Love ya!

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  9. I think a trip up to Seattle will help immensely...only 16 short days away!

    And a viewing of Wicked will teach you more about both good and misunderstood bad witches

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  10. Don't worry, you are a good mom. I can tell you from experience, though, that when school does start you'll be wishing for the days when you locked yourself in the bathroom to count. I always tried the bathroom thing, but in my case... I'm always followed in there. I'm not sure why mommy is the only one in the house who doesn't get to be in the bathroom alone, but... it's all GOOD, I guess!

    And personally, I'm hoping that the moments when my patience was tested & I failed, are FAR exceeded in my daughter's memory by the good moments. :-)

    Hugs...

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  11. You don't know how many times I have felt the same exact way. I think all moms have days when they feel they are the world's worst mom, days when kids just won't cooperate to do the simple things we ask. Believe me, I know. I have three kids 5 and under and the last few weeks have been torture at times and I don't know how to do it...I am sure you are doing your very best as we all try to do. I haven't done much scrapping lately because of kid drama lately but hopefully soon, as you said, things will blow over and all will be fine...until the next time, right?

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  12. I can totally identify with your post. I think we all go through days like that, and it usually is over small things. I admire your patience. I usually go into the other room and scream.

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  13. Hang in there, Dav! Days ahead will get better. I know you're a good Mom...just one of those bad hair days. ((Hugs))

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  14. Amen, Sister SAHM, Amen! This SAHM gig is harder than any other job I've had. And then we have one fabulous day, and all is well again. Hope that day is soon for you! HUGS

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  15. dav. i went through that DAILY when j was gone. hell, i still go through it now. it's all part of being a mommy. and if you weren't a GREAT mommy? you wouldn't care. at all. i'm proud of you. x

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  16. ah davinie...

    i've had one of those weeks too? maybe we should name it the "august epidemic"? :) lol

    & guess what i'm doing right now? waiting for the cookies to bake in the oven. lol! guess great (bad witch mommies) think alike? lol!

    here's to sugar-ed up kids tucked in bed & a fresh clean start tomorrow :)

    xoxo
    gigi

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